Well hot damn.

We’re here.

We did that year.

We made it.

2020 was my best and hardest year yet.

Some of my greatest dreams and biggest nightmares came true.

I feel stronger and more resilient than ever.

I am so proud of myself, and I am so proud of you.

2020 taught me deep duality.

I learned that…

  • My business can grow, a lot. 
  • I can live in paradise and ride horses through the ocean.
  • My relationship with food and my body can remain loving, stable, and supportive.

… even in the midst of a global crisis and traumatic incidents in my personal life.

We are designed to feel it all and navigate it all: The full spectrum of human emotion and experience.

Even in worst case scenarios, we can show up for ourselves. We can take care of ourselves. We can love ourselves.

Especially in the area of food and body image.

The food we eat, the way we move, the space we create for ourselves to FEEL all of our emotions, and the way we talk to ourselves can be a stable source of nourishment and comfort.

When I had an eating disorder in my teens and early 20s, when something upsetting happened I would numb out with food, by eating way too little or way too much.

That behavior would perpetuate my feelings of sadness and despair – when the original goal was relief and comfort. Waaaaaaah.

Now, the foods I eat, the way I take care of myself, and the way I talk to myself are my core support system.

The very things that make me so resilient through the most intense situations.

This can be true for you, too.

Food does not have to be a source of confusion, pain, and suffering.

Food is a blank canvas. We assign it purpose and meaning.

When you untwist your brain and nervous system around food…

When you heal from decades of confusion and chaos…

… food can become your support system, too.

The thing you lean on when everything is swirling and smashing around you.

Your source of steady mind-body nourishment.

The first step is believing this is possible for you.

A lot of people ignore this step, or think they’ve already integrated it when they have not.

They want to know what foods to eat, what workouts to do, and which meditations to practice.

Nothing will change unless you truly believe it’s possible for you to heal your relationship with food and your body, starting now.

Your beliefs inform your thoughts and actions.

Without belief, nothing shifts.

Through 2020, my beliefs were my bedrock.

My pragmatic positivity carried me through.

This has taken me time to develop.

I was born an optimist, then drifted into judgment and confusion around how my life could and should be, and what was possible for me. The media can do this. It’s ok. We can forgive everyone and everything that’s messed us up.

We can choose different. We can choose our beliefs, thoughts, and actions.

We can choose how we want to operate: How we talk to ourselves and view the world. This is the foundation that makes healing your relationship with food and your body effortless.

It’s a practice. It can feel awkward or fake at first. That’s expected, because we are going against the status quo when we remember our freedom, our choice.

We’re talking back to the constant stream of food and body propaganda running in the background.

The marketing mill wants to keep us small and stuck, so we’re always reaching for something to buy to “fix us.”

You have everything you need inside of you.

Yes, everyone needs support. But we can choose our support from a place of deep discernment, and from a place of autonomy and desire rather than desperate need.

What are you choosing this year, and what are you letting go of?

I love you so much.

Hugs,
Lula